SG Idol Part 1

Finally, I have a bit of free time to post these pictures up. Heh. ^^"

SG IDOL PART 1!

Roses for Cass and Ali

Ali and Cassandra.

I think her name is Aishah. =/ Sorry that I couldn't remember your name!

Singing Lee Hom's song. Mun Yee must be really happy xD

President of Student Council, Suzuki! Singing Stand By Me. Aww.

Blogger is irritated with me now. Can't upload any pics now! NO IDEA WHY. pfft. Posting more soon. = =

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Grandpa isn't doing good again. =/

No matter what, I'll stay positive. Thanks to those who has talked sense into my head. THINK POSITIVE! =D

Rumms, KL.

So You Think You Can Dance's grand finale will be held at Ruums, KL. Is it wise to go? =/ I'm having doubts. Anybody wanna go?

Just a short post. Specially for the quote Nicholas Leong created.

I'm a PLAYBOY/PLAYER.. care to know more? type kiss my ass goodnight and press enter!

Haha it cracks me up thinking of it. =P

Took this pic from Mun Yee's blog.not sure who took this pic, but that Cao Ge thing was definitely from me! <3

Cao Ge is not pronounced as Chao Gay, Ali! ><"

busy busy busy.

photos of SG Idol are not ready yet. =[

No time laa!

Wed got Bio assessment. O.o" thinking of it makes me sweattt!

I'll upload it ASAP. =D

Lalala~

The first time I saw him cry.

It isn't a bliss to witness the one you love crying. It hurts alot to see my grandpa in tears.

I have to say, I wasn't happy with the way things turned out yesterday. Most of us weren't.

I'm not saying who or what made him emotional, but nobody's blaming anyone for it. So we'll leave it aside, as it is already settled.

I'm just hoping that grandpa will be healthy again, and grandma to take care of her health. =]

Heh I gave Patrick to my grandpa. To accompany him when he's bored in the hospital.

Aww. I miss Patrick already! =[ Seriously. I've never been this attached to a soft toy, ever.

Oh. My uncle donated blood today, for some reasons la. He was like damn relaxed wehh! So geng! =D

Used phone camera to take those pics, so don't expect good quality pictures! xD






Heh. When I turn 18, I'll definitely donate blood to help those in need! =D

Oh. Went to the the famous coffee shop in Ipoh, famous for their chicken hor fun! And spotted something.

Cant see? It says G-cheong fun. xD

Heh and as promised! SG Idol pictures!

The judges.

RANDYpaulaSIMONWANNABE xD



.. And we'll be back after the break. LOL me, as Ryan Seacrest. xD

Pictures to be posted up later in the morning. Darn tired. Nitex~

We'll pray for you.

We'll pray for you, grandpa.

Grandpa's health condition deteriorated again today. He's suffering from blood infection and pneumonia now. Mom says that he looks very tired. =/ I'm really really worried, seriously.

We'll be going back to Ipoh tomorrow and I won't be back til maybe Saturday night?

Promise. SG Idol's post will be here by this Sunday. In case you BBSL-ians are reading. =]

But for now. A few pics taken on SG Idol competition day.

Preparation for the 4 Star Project

If you guys don't have a clue of what the 4 Star Project is, it's a project done by 4 clubs which consists of Interact Club, Young Entreprenuer's Club, Key Club aka Kiwanis Club and Multimedia Club. They made the biggest logo.. in M'sia I think.. of a globe using recycable materials. And they made it into the Malaysia's Book of Records! =D

I didn't join the event because I had plans which I've made earlier..

Outline of the logo.

CARME.mu.MEL lol! u know what's missing.

That's how the logo should look like..

Yes all of us helped out! =D

Chen Teng the Dai Jie up there. SOT DE! =P Hahaha

Those pictures were taken from the school hall. Now, pictures from the sewing room! =D

Pictures taken by my twin, Kah Seng!

Pictures taken by me! <3

Of course, all these pictures wouldnt turn out that good without Jamie's camera. heh sorry jamie dear, I forgot your camera model. =X Was it 350D or 400D? Bleahh I'm very very blur now. = =

Oh. Did u notice how many things we can take pictures of in the sewing room? What will happen if we did the painting in the art room? /gg

I wonder whether am I a good friend to people?

Fong Bee's back!

Just being random. Fong Bee's back from Japan!

I actually wanted to go to Japan also this year, but dad said that we didn't have enough money to send me and my sis there and there were A LOT of students who applied. =/ So I'm saving money to go next year. =D

Anyways!

Heh gooooood news!

Grandpa's lungs, liver and kidney infection is GONE! =D Heh

And next!

*drum rolls*

TADAA!

Assistant Publicity Director

Woot! I DID IT!

Even though I didn't get to be the Publicity Director, but I'm really happy that I got to be the Assistant! =D

Hehe this shows that I can do it if I want to. And so can you! As long as you have determination, the sky is the limit xD~

Mission accomplished. Got a post in the Interact club, and the best thing is muah's self confidence is getting moreeeee! ^^"

Oh. Bad news now.

Guess what?

I got 68% for my mid year exam. And the school say that if I don't maintain my results at 70% and my attendance is less that 90% they wont be giving me my scholarship next year. =[

Means I have to go to school always laaa! Yor! Why so sad one!? Even though it's only 10% scholarship but it's still moneh ma! Haih. So sad. ><"

And I miss BBSL!

Dunno why. I was talking to Mun Yee yesterday and I realised that I miss BBSL alot. =[

And and and Su made me cry just because she said she misses me! And I told her I miss BBSL then I cried. =P

Bleahh I need to finish my hw. And tell u a! I sudah jadi good girl can. = = Seriously.

I love my grandparents <3

Mom's going back to Ipoh tomorrow. So it's just left with me, dad, sis and bro.

I heard that grandpa's health condition is getting better, which makes me a happier person day by day.

Grandpa used to send me to school everyday. I remember those days when he used to wait for me while chit chatting with Daniel Phoon's grandpa every Friday. Me and Daniel used to be very guai where we CLEAN the whole classroom, and you know la the class will be very dirty on Fridays.

Then he used to bring us for dim sum and yum cha sessions during the holidays because the trios used to wake up at 7-8 something in the morning when we were lil kids. He'd send me for my piano lessons and wait for me while reading his chinese newspaper.

Then he got his first stroke when I was in Year 5 or 6. I even blamed myself when he got his second stroke because the day before he went back to Ipoh, he helped me carry my keyboard into my friend's car because I was too small to carry it. And to those who have seen me perform using my keyboard in school, you know how heavy it is. =/

He got his third stroke when I was in Form 2, if I'm not mistaken. Thank God he was strong that he managed to recover from it, and doctors even call it a miracle. And he hasn't been that fit to do anything.

Until last Wednesday, he started getting fever. I'm not really sure about the whole process of him getting sick and stuff, but he was admitted into hospital on Saturday.

All of us back in KL thought it wasn't something serious, until my uncle sent a msg to my mom saying that the results for his check up is out. He was facing lungs, liver and kidney infection. There were more details of the results.. but I couldn't really remember because all I remember was my mom screaming OH MY GOD! in the car and the both of us started crying.

The next morning, relatives from KL all started our journey back to Ipoh early in the morning to visit grandpa. I was really worried that I wouldn't be able to hold back on my tears because I cried the day before that when my uncle sent a picture of my grandpa. But the moment I saw my grandpa, I felt really really relieved.

He didn't look as bad as in the picture, and he's recovering. Until today, he's recovering. As I said, he is a strong man. Even though we had smiles on our faces, but deep inside, each and every one of us are worried sick.

And who has been taking care of my grandpa for so long? Besides my uncles, aunties and cousins, my grandma has been playing the major role in taking care of him.

My grandma is also a very strong woman. She does all the housework, and she laughs alot,even when she faces difficulties in life. She used to hit us with rolled up newspapers when we wouldn't listen to her because we're too engrossed in dramas or computer games. She used to walk to the market every morning to buy vegetables for lunch and dinner, and you guys should know how far is the market from my house.

We used to talk when she's cooking or when we're having lunch together. I used to complain about things when she gives me advises about life. And her cooking is definitely the best! I remember having the best lunches among my friends when we stay back during Year 6 for our extra classes.

My grandma has always been healthy and I'm glad about that! =D

Until today, my grandma takes care of my grandpa no matter how difficult that is and I'm really proud of her, because not all woman are able to take care of their men. You might think it's easy, but it isn't. And she doesn't really complain about taking care about my grandpa. The only thing she complains about is the maids! =P

I miss my grandparents alot, their absence in this very house makes life different.

I don't hear the TV noises when I'm back home, I don't see my grandparents sitting at their chairs at 9.30pm watching Wah Lai Toi and I defenitely don't get to talk to them as often anymore.

Get well soon, grandpa. I know u're strong enough to go through this.

She's backkk! =D

Heh grandpa's health isn't as bad as yesterday already. I'm so so so glad!

Yesh, my happy mood is back, and finally I'm posting up pictures! Lalala but not the SG Idol contestant pictures, even when the rest of 'em have posted it already. =/ I'm so outdated laaa!

My twin! Jamie dun cry, he handled ur baby with CARE =P

Love the words Cassandra wrote on my table. IN UR FACE! /gg

Sponsored by Rebecca~

Rachel and Olivia! Used to be my classmates when I was in SG last year for 3 months~

glow in the dark alvin =P

Heh and last Saturday I went to Pavilion to hang out with these MONKEYS!

Please, next hang out. Go Sunway or 1U can aaaa? =P

Sweet Kokoro. Thumbs up! =D

SPOTleft guy-whiteshirt. Aww damn cute! <3

She's always emo now. Haihh~

Oh! PK! Sei dumb dumb!

We posers. Sei dumb dumb MIA. =]

Promoting The Loaf!

Bring me to Pizza Hut the next time we go Pavilion.. ORANGE <3~!

Get well soon.

Just when I thought I had my ups of life coming back, I'm meeting my down side of life again.

She never expected such news because she thought that things will always be fine,
Little has she thought that something so serious would come about.
Now, she's just hoping for God to work his magic,
As every one of us pray for the best.

Shedding a tear isn't enough, because I'm waiting for a miracle to happen.

Almost back on track.

Went to school today. =]

Had fever last nite, and woke up this morning feeling much better.

Thank you to those who've IM, texted and called me when I was absent in tuition and school. You guys make me feel loved weh! =P

Yeah, not fully recovered, but she's on her way! She'll be back on track soon. Hee.

I crave for ice-cream!

I'm craving for all the cold desserts I can think of right now!

Bleah, it's so terrible being sick. Why must I fall sick at this time of the year? = =

And I'm not getting better by the day. It's so sickening to see myself not being able to do anything just because I'm sick.

My face has more and more pimples popping out too thanks to the medicines that I took.

Gahh! I wanna recover ASAP.

TO THOSE WHO ARE AT THE AIRPORT, ON THE WAY TO JAPAN!

Have a safe trip to Japan okay? Have fun there, and most importantly take more pictures! =D It doesn't matter whether you get us souvenirs from Japan or not, because sharing with us the experience is the best!

Screw the virus!

Bleah I feel like vomitting right now. Just took my medicine, and guess what? I don't feel better, instead I feel worse.

I thought that this morning when I wake up, my headache will be gone, and I'll be okay soon.

Haha dream on~ Things never turn out as what I expected, always. I'm having flu now also.

What makes things worst is that I can't concentrate in class, and I feel like vomitting all the time that I even skipped tuition. = = I never skipped tuition unless it's really necessary one lo! Bleah~ So much for the fun of being sick.

And I have homework piling up edi! Sad rite?!

Bleah feeling like shytttt!

I thank you for not leaving me behind.

BORED.

PS I Love You and Narnia 2.

I just watched it. Don't kill me for lazing around at home because I tried.

I opened my Moral exercise book, and I felt like vomitting. = =

So now I'm just plain bored. Bleah, thank you, I've been longing for days like this. Hehe

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She remembers every minute, every second, as though it just happened yesterday but you chose to leave her in doubt. Just watching that heart shatter when she can do nothing is pure torture, because she knows that all she needs to cure that heart, is for you to approach her and say those three beautiful words.

This is what happens after watching romantic movies and listening to so much of those accents. =P

What to do?

Skipped school. Lala~ I'm up so early is just because Rebecca woke me up by calling me, thinking that I'm in school. =P

She woke up feeling great, except for the sore throat, and now she's feeling like shyt again.

Without any interruptions from anyone this early in the morning, I'll be really glad to tell u that I can blog about what I really want to blog. =D

So, I've been thinking.

Remember all the times when I'm angry? I used to think really negatively which made me a negative person for that period of time. But once I manage to go to sleep, the next morning I'll be alright!

Amazing, huh? I never knew how to be angry for more than one day. Haha I'm really grateful for being that kinda person, because whenever I say I hate you, you should know that I hate you for only a second. Haha ^^"

Instead, being emo is what I always have problems with. I would be emo until a problem is solved. Bleah~ And you people should know why I'm always emo.

Yeah, I want to find a day to solve the problem but some people just don't have the time for it. I completely understand that different people have different priorities. Your top priority may not be the same as mine. =]

Oh yeah, more and more people are having blogs now! Haha it's really cool that most of us have blogs, so that we'll know each other's life even better, even if we don't have time to talk! Of course, you guys have to update often laaa. I'll read, even if you have a whole long post just talking about rubbish without pictures in it! =P

Just get done with it once and for all, will you?

Yesterday.

Bleah. Listening to that song makes me cry. Yesterday- Leona Lewis.

I am emo now. = = Feel like skipping school tomorrow. Don't feel so good.

Okay. I'll start crapping.

Who am I to you, am I someone who never gets to be in that heart?

I am afraid of guessing, because I just couldn't bare the pain to misinterpret.

Tears shed from her eyes, as I see her heart shatters.

Sore throat attack!

No idea why I'm having sore throat right now. I drank water and I didn't even drink carbonated drinks! O.o" why a? hmm.

Hellboy was.. LONG. = = Seriously, it's kinda yeng laa but then, it's still long! 2 hours weh! Harry Potter also not that sien laa. Hee.

And Journey To The Centre of The Earth was funny. Haha yeah I had teary eyes for one second, but it was funny! Heh dun wanna be a spoiler! Lalala~

I wanna watch The Dark Knight! I WANNNNN. =X~

And check check check this out! I found my dream sneakers! But dun have my size =[ Yor! If anybody see this shoe anywhere let me know okay!

Oh. Learning six-steps is.. Challenging. Lol my butt is too heavy! Hahahah

I have nth to say today.

Haih, do hw. Sien.

Dumb dumb where are youuuuuu.

Noobies.

Things may not turn out the way you think,
or you imagine,
but we shall always appreciate the lovely memories that we've created,
because you and I will never know what happens next.

I will never hope or expect,
because I know that I've tried,
even though things might not turn out the way I wish for.

Thank you, thank you. <3

SG Idol.

Thank you Jamie for your baby today! =P

Had fun in school today, it was pure fun =]

Saw cute dudes in school as usual, this time, with a 1 second conversation? Haha.

I admire, just because there isn't any other cute guy in school! /gg

feeling nervous, yet excited- no reason? Lol

My face super cacat-ed now. = = Bleahh~ I hate my skin. Why must it be like this?!

Lol.
I'm crapping.
Again.


Pictures of SG Idol will be posted, soon? =]

Yeah, soon.

Aim high, reach for the sky!

Faggot.

You could've talked nicely, and u chose to shout just because we don't listen.

Would you prefer people to lose respect in you?

We're all a bunch of teenagers. I've been at your position once, and I know roughly know how things work.

I never bothered what people said about you, until I knew you better. Yeah, maybe I haven't know you long enough to know what is behind all this shyt, but I know very well that you made me angry.

SG Idol tomorrow. Thumbs up to Jamie for allowing me to use her baby. =P

I'm gonna make things happen! =]

I lost my words. Lol

I've been thinking of what I'm supposed to post today, yet when I face the computer screen, it seems like I don't remember anything.

Bleahhh~


Had a terrible headache today. Didn't really get enough sleep last nite. And whenever I don't get enough sleep, I'll get headaches and sometimes when it's really terrible I'll even feel like puking. =[


Woke up and realised that I actually didn't get any sleep at all, because my brain has been reminding me of today.


Attended school as usual. Spent the whole morning finishing up last minute homework, and thank goodness it was raining today so CCA was cancelled. Yeahh, the headache made things worse.

Road from Jusco to Sg Long~

Went for an interview in school today. It might not be a big deal to others, but it is to me. That's because it's my very very first interview! =D I was waiting outside 5sc1 and I started feeling nauseous. My stomach felt like it was about to turn upside down. @@"~ I really wanted to back out lo that time!

Hehe but I started to calm down when I listened to one of Jay's songs. Seriously it helped me! =D It motivated me a lot~ And I didn't do very well during my interview la. I didn't really know what to say, because I had all my thoughts messed up in my mind. Haha so yeah. Lesson learnt!


No sleeping late if you're about to go for an interview the next day! =P


I was really relieved and quite proud of myself that I didn't stop myself from trying! I don't know whether I'll get that post or not, but at least I tried, right? =] To me, that's the most important thing to me, because I haven't been trying hard enough for a very very long time and this interview also helped me a lot in gaining my self confidence ^^"

This was taken a very long time ago. =]

Hmm. Another personal thought.


I don't think that talking bad about someone is nice, because I myself never liked people talking bad about me. Yes, I've never really bothered to know whether people have been doing this behind me or not, but it isn't nice also right? =]


I never liked being enemies with people also la. I know that there are people that I don't like, but I have always preferred to look at people on their positive sides. It's only when I'm irritated that I look at their negative sides. =P


Perfect or not, it's just me! ^^"~

Oh yeah. Jamie! Get well soon k? And no more eating SMK BBSL's nasi lemak! xD~

What's all about you?

I woke up this morning and felt inspired by someone. Lols~

I've been emo for quite some time, and I felt that it has actually done something beneficial to me. I've learned to just quiet down and think. Yes! Think in such a way that I could get myself together.

Being alone sometimes does make you think. =D

You know what? I've been dreaming too long. Since I was a kid, I've always had this rough idea of growing up.

You get to drive a car, live in a house on your own, have a perfect boyfriend, work in a company which gives you high salary, and you'd get to go shopping after working hours and during the weekends.

..That was the idea I had which blinded me from looking into the real world.

Now that I've reached Form 4, I started realizing that I've been blinded by all the luxury and comfort given by my parents. I get to do almost anything that I want, anytime. Now, when there's no maid at home, and school work is piling up I realised that life isn't as easy as it seems.

I used to complain day and night that I'm bored just because I've got nothing to do at home. I didn't realise that there's so much to do! And when I've got more work to do at home, I wouldn't know how to prioritize my work and will just leave some work undone.

Seriously, I've neglected my studies until the mid year exam. I never thought that Form 4 isn't a year where you're supposed to be on honeymoon. I've been given constant reminders that if I don't start revising by Form 4, I will be going through a tough time in Form 5. However, I just took those reminders for granted and continued my daily, unorganized routine.

Until last week when I started thinking about my future and everything, yes I took off the blindfold. I realise that I have to work hard to strive for excellence. It does sound cliche, rite?
But it's true. Having an aim which is sky high doesn't work if you only know how to aim and not work hard for it. I've been aiming so much that I only meet disappointment because I wasn't prepared for anything.

Aim high, reach for the sky!

Being the lazy girl for such a long time, it definitely isn't easy to make a change of myself to be a better person. Nevertheless, I'll try to make those changes in my mind come true. Of course, despite working hard, I'll also learn how to have more fun in life, right? =D If not I'll turn into a no life person laa! ><"

Nice nice nice? =P~

The key to a balanced life, is to just have fun in doing whatever you do. =D

Long wish list.

I have a super super duper long wish list in my mind now. I don't wish much for materials like a LV handbag or that super hot outfit which would look perfect on me. Instead, I wish for things which mostly couldn't be owned by just showing off your ka-ching ka-ching $$.

One of the wishes in my wish list.

I wish for myself to grow taller. Yes, top on my wishlist. I don't like to go for concerts which are super packed with people just because I'm short! =[ I nearly fainted when I went for the Roxy Summer Splash ya know, just because I was short and I couldn't get enough air = = Pfft.

Yesh. Main priority now. = = I don't wanna be dependant on high heels to make me grow taller! You and I know how much I love my sneakers one laa! Lols~

Okay. Time for confession.

I.
Love.
You.
JAY.

It's the Golden Melody Awards now. Live in idk where. Taiwan i think?

Aaron said that Jay won 4 awards so far?

JAY CHOU! YOU RAWK! <3

I.
am.
Crapping.
just.
to.
keep.
my.
blog.
alive.

=D

she's done!

It's quite late now. Am blogging still, just for the fun of it. I am eager to type.

I cried myself to sleep last night, even when I told someone that I wouldn't after we ended our conversation.

Yes, woke up feeling shitty and thought of skipping school. But I took that thought of my mind, when I was thinking that things will be worse when I skip school. Facing all the drama alone, so sucky la.

I went to school and managed to survive throughout the whole day even when I was having this really bad headache.

I was extra quiet la today of course, I bet you guys noticed rite. =]

But things turned out better when I managed to laugh just before tuition when I received a msg which was quite funny. Things got better eventually.

Anyways, now feeling quite happy because tomorrow is a friday and we're finally coming to a weekend. And this weekend I'll get to drive! On the road! Woot! (Y) =D

Oh. Still feeling quite doubtful about filling in the blanks for the "why should we choose you" part in the application form for post in the Interact Club. I have a feeling that I wouldn't get it, but I'll still try. Another way to boost the self confidence in me, rite? =]

Dun remember where I got this. But it's nice, right? <3

After knowing what was in ur mind, I finally decided to really put these feelings aside.

Crystal clear.

Clearly you don't care anymore.
Will never question the existence of the sentence, are we meant to be anymore.
Now this feeling will just sink deeply right into the broken pieces.
And she wouldn't care anymore.
She would just shed a tear, and just bid goodbye.

Shall I spell the words for you, because there's no one like you?

Leave the past behind, for life awaits you in the future.

Just had some pretty sad arguement with my mom. We both broke down, in different places.

Texted that one person I seek for, everytime I step into a puddle of mess. However, it was crystal clear that, that person doesn't care.

Maybe this is what independance means. It'll take awhile to bring myself back together.

I tried to leave things aside, I've tried.